New One

I have a new one..

I have a new target!

Make me confused, dag dig dug, and all...

I was promise to my self!

I swore i'd never fall again.. but you coming now!

SUCKS!!

Said wanna make me to falling in love with you,

what the hell! nope, i dont want...

Maybe just for have fun? Yes, i want!

But, hellloooooo? is took a long time you know!

bahahahahaha....

2nd floor, 3.51pm

You Bitch!!!

Hari ini!!
Semua orang, semua orang orang disekeliling gw menyebalkan!
Itu berawal dari makan siang! makan siang bangsat!

Baru saja dua hari yang lalu..
Sapaan YM dia ke gw yang memang mengagetkan gw.
Itu untuk pertama kali nya dia menyapa setelah dia memutuskan semuanya.

Ya.. dia menyapa, karna memang seminggu gw hilang dr perdunian Yahoo Messanger!
Dia memang tetap bullshit! Makan siang tadi menjawab semua ke bullshitan dia!

Ya.. dia memang bajingan! brengsek! penjahat!
Ya! temen ku berkata seperti itu beberapa hari yang lalu!
Berani berbuat seperti itu.. kartu lo ada ditangan gw!
Tapi.. tenang! gw tidak bajingan, brengsek, dan penjahat seperti kamu sayang...
Tapi.. tunggu pembalasanku :)


2nd floor, 6.20pm

The broken heart come again!

Yeaaaahh.... it's coming!
Only one month! the broken heart come back again!
Hit me! hit me! hit me until you're satisfied.

I tried what you want. ALL!!
but?? nope, its nothing! i got nothing from you!

Cmonn... promise to your self do not falling a love again!
LOVE, makes me DIE!!
I SWORE I'D NEVER FALL AGAIN!

office, 1.34pm 13 oct 09

Relationship???

Tidak ada habis habisnya mengalami seperti ini!

Kenapa kita harus berpasang pasangan?

Kenapa kita harus berpacaran?

Why we must have girlfriend?

Why we must have boyfriend?

WHY??

Kenapa harus cinta?

Kenapa harus sayang?

and WHY I'M SO EXCITED WITH YOU??? FUCK!!

Then...,

Relationship aren't always being happy, right??

How often do you feel happy in your relationship? hah??

Never love more than peanut butter

"i'm not doing so good with relationship.
not, i'm not! is hard for me alot people in, sometimes."

Thats the words!!! for making me like stupid for the one month.
for second time i have hurt feeling! so hurt!!
for no reason you know, just because IT'S OVER!

The player thing i let it go, thought our life was set in stone.
You said you'd never leave, look what you've done to me!
I never thought i'd feel this low down in my life,
Everyday i wished that it was me that had died and I'mmmm.

DRINKING AND SMOKING WEED!
You have to know, i mean, eh, you know i can do it!!



office, 3.46am

Evanescence said BROKEN!

I wanted you to know, I love the way you laugh.
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away.
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well.
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain.

Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome,
And I don't feel right when you're gone away.
You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore.
The worst is over now and we can breathe again.
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight.

‘Cause I'm broken when I'm open,
And I don't feel like I am strong enough.
‘Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome,
And I don't feel right when you're gone away.

‘Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, You don't feel me here, anymore

self injury

For all of you self-injurers. Just to let you know! You're not alone.

WARNING! If you cut yourself or injure yourself, these may be triggering!
Everytime you feel stress. Everytime you feel alone.

Everytime you feel hurt. Everytime you feel depresseed.

Everytime you feel heartbroken. Everytime you feel like crying.

I know you want to bleed. I know you want to sceram for help.

but THIS ISN'T THE ANSWER!

Dont let it take over your life like it took over mine.

when i first started,it wasnt very bad, then get it got worse and worse.

the scars will last forever. and look where i am now. i keep trying to stop,

but my scars keep reminding me of every time i've felt.

hurt. stressed. alone. depressed. heartbroken.

i wiss i had stopped.before it became an addiction.

everytime i bleed i feek my problems drain out of me.

i end up feeling happier. i feel like things will get better but my addiction wont stop.

i cut again, again, again, and again! and i cant stop.

i cant stop cutting, i cant stop bleeding, i cant stop screaming,

i know ive screwed up my life.
if you have started cutting or injuring yourself in any way,

i advise you to try and stop.